rant ep 15: exam toxicity

assalamualaikum and howdy,peeps..

this is me pouring all the feeling over the exam prep, which i don't know what i will turn out to be when i came out of the toxicity next 3 weeks..

ya.. i know this is so wrong since i should be studying instead of doing finger tutting on the keyboard....this is what i called a "coffee break" session..

sorry to say, but i am bored of this cycle...revision, eating, internet, sleeping,revison, revision.. the same thing repeated things that make me wanna say "ey, malaslah".. but that is not gonna happen, insyaAllah, as i had a promise to myself that i am not gonna make way for people to say, "arghh, kata daie, exam result hancuss"
ahaha..so not gonna happen girl.. unless Allah wanted it to be...

like i said, tring to break the cycle is want i really wanted to do, but hye, if and only if i can passed the professional exam without having to revise and read everything, ... which is as possible as me, liking the taste of fresh tomato..eww(read: very unlikely)

what i wanna do after this is a very good question.. but to get a perfect answer is not something i can guarantee ..i always feel like i am not a very good planner, eventhough the saying goes, fail to plan is planning to fail,.. this seems not to suite me well,.. i am someone who just follow the gut.. when i feel like doing something, i should do it on that particular moment..sighh..

there is an imaginary list of things i really hope i shall be able to commit on the not-even-1-month holidays... and the highlight would be trying to involve with DnT in my hometome... i wish to get to know those asatizah n syuyuz (not sure if the spelling is right).. hoping to get fresh ideas and inspiration for the sake of me, my adek2 and the upcoming juniors...

so long, this should be a short one actually, but hye, i can't stop the pouring idea, we might end up breaking up and this blog will have no more post onward since the ideas and me are no more..

guess that's all i wanna rant on...do read, and think, and take the good moral value (if there's any)
have a good day, for now..and don't forget to pray for me and my lovely 2nd batch mbbs classmates for our success in this professional exam..

peace,smile and say alhamdulillah

rant ep 14: gratefulness kills the sadness ^-^

assalamualaikum , and howdy peeps...

yep, by feeling grateful, you actually kills the sadness~~

instead of saying,
"arghhh, why does this happen to me?? my problem is the worst... why?why?why? people won't understand this feeeling, take a bit,chew, then talk....
smile, take a deep breath, and say..
"alhamdulillah, tho this happen to me, i still have my family, i am still alive, a still can breath the air, i still have my full body and hye, i still have Allah"
surely, this will stir away those bad feeling...

my naqibah says: if you wanna have a peaceful mind, you have to get to know your creator, bring yourself closer to Allah...


p/s: if you read al-quran, there's a lot of ayat that can cheer you up...ooooo..how wonderful

rant ep 13: life is interesting,ain't it?

assalamualaikum..and hye,y'all..

how's life??
mine is getting better day by day,alhamdulillah.. thank goodness Allah always there..
haha..pernah x terfikir??
kenapa kalau benda yang kita belajar, asal je masuk exam,mesti jadik tak best..
tak caya,..sudah..

contohnya, aku suka je belajar personal and profesional development (PPD), belajar etika jadik doktor, belajar medical law, belajar cara study, belajar psychiatry,..but when it come to exam especially essay,..hati aku terus kata..PPD is death boring!!(harap2 prof rohaya x baca..haha)

same goes with epidemiology, aku suka belajar sejarah how's a certain disease being investigated to find the causes..
at least that's the closest to forensic..

.haha..teringat kenangan lama,kan anakabahman...
 how i wanna be a csi, so bad..
sebab terpengaruh dengan csi series yang berlambak kat tv..
aku memang suka science investigation pun..seems cool..
sejak dari sekolah rendah lagi aku dah tanam nak jadik polis, then tau ape tu forensic, teringin jadik macam nick stoves of csi las vegas..bergaya habis wa cakap sama lu~~
then, things happen..
one day, out of sudden yang memang sangat suddenly( teacher farah must be so frust of my english)..
terbit cita2 baru,..nak jadik doctor..entah kenapa...
memang Allah dah catit sejak azali kot..yang hamba Dia yang bernama anakabahman nie bakal dok kat tganu blajo cara merawat orang physically (hopefully, to heal Islam in muslim too)..

back to topic, aku ingat lagi,
 before getting into medical school, aku sangat suka baca medical journal or any artikel related to medicine..
siap boleh citer kat orang lagi..but then,
bila dah jadik medical student yang insyaAllah, in 3 years je lagi, bakal bergelar cik puan DR anakabahman??serammm... everything that i learn become dull, macam not interesting anymore

tulah manusia,..or specifically, anak bongsu anakabahman yang baru nak kenal the meaning of life..baru nak kenal asam garam(walaupun xde pun masuk dapur..kiki)..

belajarlah untuk Allah, sebab ilmu ni semua Allah yang punya.. life is interesting when you make and feel that it is interesting.... and don't ever forget akhirat yang abadi...

P/s: aku nak bahagia dunia akhirat...
and i dont feel like putting an picture..