the fear of failing....

yes, the feeling when you are so afraid to fail..
when u've always got what u want,alhamdulillah...
and someday, you think that failure is just inches away...
that moment you feel like there's a time bomb that is just about to explode...

the feeling is so...word cannot describe it

a person who have never experience failure,..
afraid of losing is something so dang hard to handle...
and you start to think whether you can get up after this fall..
will you still have the spirit to move on...

will you be as strong as others..
who experience failure ,but can still work hard and move on...in addition, get stronger..

well,it's true than..
u afraid of something u dont know...
u dont know how it feel to fail...
so,failure is a nightmare u wish u'll never have...

only allah know my feeling right know...
but can i ask for His miracle..
taht i'll pass..
eventho i know how bad i behave all this year..
am i qualified to ask for it???
for i only start to look for Him in loneliness and sadness..
not in happiness and wealthy..

i pray,..
that allah will take care of me and listen to my doa..
as allah is the only one that i can cry on...
ranting on..asking from...
for everyone have their own worries and problems...

truly, man kind is alone in this world..
except that we have Allah who'll be listening to us,,,
no matter how bad, or how forgetful we are of Allah's blessing...

may peace be with me,...always and forever..