sibuk kew??

kalau PUAN SITI FATIMAH tau nie, mau nye kena sebakul ....2 hari lagi nk eom pun main lagi...hehe..sorry,jap je ma eh...

now, back to our topic,...SIBUK KEW??
yep,this past 2 weeks is reallyyyy...busy...with classes from 8-5 everyday...with usrah on friday n koko on saturday...i can hardly have time for myself...actually ade je...cuma x sgt la..haha

flashing back down the memory lane,..the older anak abah man would have scream HELL!...starting to feel empty, and starting to get on everyone's nerve...yeah,the old anak abah man,...with typical anak bongsu's attitude...selfish and manja!!!

 i myself was surprised by the new me,...despite all those study, activities and etc....i still can hold on to  my grip and stay cool..(though sometimes i burst when people get on my nerve..T_T)...and i didnt feel really empty, dont feel like leaving medicine...get out of this place...

i dont know if it's because i'm already 20, so i'm being mature....or is it cause by hormonal changes...
but one thing for sure, when you are trying hard for HIS blessing, trying to get near HIM,
even though i'm not that khusyuk in solat,...feeling like i'm still a million years behind to actually been called a good muslimah by His definition.....

it makes you realise that HE is watching you and no matter how small your effort is, ALLAH SWT will always be by your side...now, and always...



p.s: am not trying to say i'm so rajin or what a good girl i am, just wanna  share those great feeling i have~~XD

post yang kontot!!!!

assalamualaikum and greeting,people~~

have you ever feel burdened by some responsibility??
but then, you realise it's your own choice so it's a matter of grab 'em or lose 'em....


well,..anak abah man need to make choice, and she already did...
so, i'm praying to Allah that this is the right way,..the clean path so i can face Him in akhirat with head held high up~~


insyaallah...
btw, Allah is my top priority,...and i also did this for the sake of my parents...
that Allah had said; A GOOD(SOLEH/SOLEHAH) CHILD CAN BRING HIS/HER PARENTS STRAIGHT TO JANNAH,...Allah have promise that,..and that A BAD CHILD CAN GRAB THE PARENTS STRAIGHT TO HELL...astaghfirullah



p.s:may Allah be with me always, now and Hereafter..aminn

aku poyo yg teramat( i am such a poyo)

astonished with the statement above???!!!

yep, you should!!
why did i said so??
because i've been thinking deeply today over my behaviour...


macam ape yg dah jadik hari nie....
at first, aku dok debate ngan bdk2 nie yg yuran PERMATA sgt mahal...rm45 se-sem bgi aku sgt expensive sedangkan duit tu x rase sgt pun dlm aktivity..

siap bleh aku pegi per-hantu kawan aku suh jgn dengar ckp exco PERMATA yg suh back-up kata yuran tu relevant...(aku tau aku sgt jahat, dan dengan confess dlm ayat nie x bermaksud aku bangga dengan sikap tu).
ayat yg terBAEK aku kate: KITA KENA DGR PANDANGAN 2 BELAH PIHAK!!


pastu,masuk meeting tu,..
bila en IRSHAD dan MUJIB(nice defend mujib..) bgi reason and say that memang every cent yg dibayar oleh ahli memg ahli akan dpt benefitnya...
it makes me realise yg aku xleh nk samakan dgn FASKES yg selalu mintak duit HEPA(yg sgt la susah nk lulus)...
we are talking about PERMATA right now!!!!
persatuan kami kecik je, dah la selalu kena cop banyak ragam....
<<cerita of what happened during the meeting kita masuk lam folder "private nad confidential" la ye>>


ape yg aku nk highlightkan adalah:
1-aku cakap je lebih
2-aku suka dengar cakap sebelah pihak,
3-pastu dengan bangga nya aku kate,.."eh,kita kena dgr 2-2 belah pihak"..
4-aku perangai cam lalang
conclusion=aku banyak dosa


ape yg aku nk cakap sebenarnye nih???!!
haha...
nk suh muhasabah diri aku sendiri...
yg kalau cakap tu mesti serupa bikin okeh..
walk your talk,bereh boh???
pastu jgn "koya" cakap ko tu isi dia boleh pakai sgt...



p.s:betolla kata bijaksana "orang berilmu suka berdiam diri, orang bodoh kuat cakap benda x de faedah"